I don't know, Clint. I don't know how this system works. All I can tell you is that not everyone comes back.
[Natasha sighs softly, curling up on herself a bit. If he had died and not come back, she doesn't think she would have ever forgiven herself. But then, if she'd tripped and Clint hadn't turned back to help her, she doubts he would have ever forgiven himself, either.]
Whatever you think about your worth to the team, we need you here. [There's a pause, and then, much more quietly:] I need you.
[It takes her a while to respond, too, because for a moment, she's just stuck rereading those last couple of lines, at a complete loss for how to reply.]
I don't pat egos. You know that.
[That's the easy part. As for the rest...]
And I know you would. I...
[Ugh. It's rare that words fail her, but here she is.]
I didn't mean to and it wasnt really something I thought about If something had happened to you and I could've stopped it I wouldnt be able to live with myself whether you came back or not So i'm not sorry I did it but I am sorry I scared you
Don't. You don't need to apologize. You saved my life.
[And he's saved her life before, of course, but he hasn't died for her, and she's grappling with it. She can't help but feel guilty, even though she knows she would have done the same for him in a heartbeat. Natasha just doesn't want to lose him for the millionth time. Sometimes, she thinks he's better than she deserves.]
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I helped you up and it hugged me to death
I guess
I don't remember anything past it getting its arms around me
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[Her voice almost sort of breaks there. Oops, Natasha. Step up your game.]
You're lucky you came back.
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am I really that lucky
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[Natasha sighs softly, curling up on herself a bit. If he had died and not come back, she doesn't think she would have ever forgiven herself. But then, if she'd tripped and Clint hadn't turned back to help her, she doubts he would have ever forgiven himself, either.]
Whatever you think about your worth to the team, we need you here. [There's a pause, and then, much more quietly:] I need you.
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I know I'm not a waste of space don't pat my ego
i would do it every time
for you
for anybody on our team but especially you and you know it, I don't have to tell you
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I don't pat egos. You know that.
[That's the easy part. As for the rest...]
And I know you would. I...
[Ugh. It's rare that words fail her, but here she is.]
You scared the hell out of me, Clint.
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[ He really is. For that specifically. ]
I didn't mean to and it wasnt really something I thought about
If something had happened to you and I could've stopped it I wouldnt be able to live with myself whether you came back or not
So i'm not sorry I did it but I am sorry I scared you
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[And he's saved her life before, of course, but he hasn't died for her, and she's grappling with it. She can't help but feel guilty, even though she knows she would have done the same for him in a heartbeat. Natasha just doesn't want to lose him for the millionth time. Sometimes, she thinks he's better than she deserves.]
Thank you.
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you're welcome
now come get me this building is creeping me out
I mean obviously after the weather clears up
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i'm gonna put my extra socks on my hands
oh right i have all my fingers back
hooray
anyway I'll see you soon
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Hooray. Stay safe.
[And she's totally going to bug him later.]